Oops, almost typed “cu//t” instead of “kind”. 8]

Did you know that I never swore/cursed this much before shit started between Meow and I? Ah, I have to try to revert back. Hmm… Maybe not revert back, but change the ‘bad’ stuff. Did you know, even when Jessica was super pissed at me back in the day, not EVER in ANY of the emails I sent to her contained swear words? [grin] The only time I actually swore to do with a girlfriend or a love potential was with June, but it had nothing to do with June. I think it was me driving and June was passenger, and some fuc… Some retard cut me off so I chased him (yeah I know) and swore in Cantonese excessively. I had a lot of work stress that day.


Anyway, all I wanted to say was, “Yup, it’s good.” Mhm… 8]

I was just merging and deleting email folders, and skimmed through Jason’s 499 emails between us, then I merged his box with the main team’s and now there are almost a thousand emails between us. They’re sorted by date descending, so I scrolled rapidly downwards while looking at the dates.

[“Water” – FF7 Advent Children]

As I did that, just memories of Meow and I and the corresponding situations related and unrelated to us faded in and out of my mind… 04/2006, 03/2006, 12/2005, 10/2005, 07/2005, 03/2005, 01/2005, 12/2004, 10/2004, 08/2004, 02/2004, 11/2003… Just random months, and just speaking randomly too, nothing ‘special’ specifically.

Yeah, time moves on and on and on. Just like when I had my chance with Virginia, then I went through a long sad period amongst other things, then June, and then work, then other stuff, then Hong Kong, then more stuff, then more work, then Cindy, ups and downs, stuff, then the break-up, then work, and now at this moment in time, just tapping away at 2:11 in the morning.

I just have to let myself go and surrender to RT. Through past experiences, I am automatically skeptical – I don’t need to voice it, not at this stage in my life. However, I do believe in Ray. At this moment in time, he makes a good leader and slave master. Haha… I just have to do my part in all of this. It’s tough meaning it takes a large chunk of our ‘free’ time, but we all know what we have to do, and how to get there. The only thing to stop us in our tracks, is if we can’t get VC.

So, aside from that, I don’t have to just believe. I simply believe. My skepticism is based around getting VC and having a successful product, but Ray will have to prove me wrong on that. In the meantime, we just have to finish building it and launch the prototypes.

RT may get famous, and my work will be shown across the globe, and most likely I will never get recognized by outsiders for my visuals. However, for the few that have seen my work – friends, family, past lovers – I think that’s enough for now. [smiles] I can’t leave a legacy based solely on continuing my family’s bloodline, but I can leave traces of myself in this world and through life… Hopefully…

This is the start, the beginning. We just have to complete the foundations.


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